I came to a deeper relationship with Christ in a very broken place. I have gone through low-self esteem, bullying, domestic violence and rape. All of this before the age of 21. I'm 31 now. You would have thought it might have been from one of these trying and traumatic situations, but that was not it for me.
It was not until my 27th birthday, my faith felt shaken. I went through a period where I was angry with God. Basically, a guy I thought I would marry, die from a brain injury. My 27th birthday was the last time I saw him and he died a week later. Even in my broken place, I made a decision to run toward God because I thought had nothing else to lose.
As I go through trying to better understand why God did not heal the guy and why he did not answer my prayers, I realize just how much God loves me. God restores my loss by blessing me with a husband, who proposes to me on my 29th birthday. I truly believe I owe God my life, so now I use my gift of poetry to be a light to the world. Even when you think God has let you down, he really does know how to turn things around for good.